I've turned into a crazy woman, so fed up and down...

[Wobblewatcher]

Long story but I had a missed miscarriage back in 2006. I then had my daughter in 2007. We are trying again and last month I had a chemical pregnancy/early miscarriage.

This month I'm sure I'm pregnant again.

I can't think of anything else and starting to feel very down about the whole thing. I can't trust my body at all and can't seem to appreciate that my body gave me my daughter. I'm very negative about the whole thing and am convinced I am going to miscarry again if indeed I'm pregnant. Woke this morning to find my boobs that were sore yesterday are today fine. I don't know where to turn, what to think, what to do, if anything. I'm so confused and upset and just want to be like a normal person that finds out she is pregnant and is happy and relaxed.

Sorry I know there are far worse things happening in the world but I feel so crap and confused.

I just want another baby. Simple.

How do you get over the feelings of doubt that miscarriage brings? How do I trust my body again? This is just all too much for mr to cope with.

Anyone?

You poor thing. I've (only) lost one, between dc1 & 2 (now got 3, ttc #4). Eventually it will happen again, and you will carry to term and everything will be fine. At that point you will become a little more relaxed but if you ever ttc again you will worry again - it's part of the deal.

I rationalised my mc as I lost it at 10 wks but it had stopped growing at 8 so I knew that there was something really wrong and it would never have been viable. I'm grateful I lost the baby then rather than several months later with all the heartache that would have involved for so many more people.

Obviously, all this rational thinking happened some time later - it stayed raw for quite a while. The hardest thing now is that every Christmas Day I have a little cry as that's when it would have been due (11 years this year). Other than that I've been fine for years.

One day you will wake up and it's not your first thought. That's when you know it will be ok.

Give yourself a break. If you are pg this month then try (!) to relax. Worrying, though natural, is not good for either of you. If you're not, try to relax a bit about the whole ttc thing. I don't mean stop trying but maybe don't make it an issue for a month or two. Grieve for your losses properly.

You will manage to carry a baby to term again. You have a beautiful dd. You are lucky and blessed, you are just going through a down period, and let's face it, who has not been through one of those before? You will be fine.

Keep in touch?

Thankyou BM for your reply. Very helpful. Been wretching today and so hope that is a good sign. Can't seem to stop looking at every tiny little symptom/sign. Wish I could be care free and relaxed but it's soooooo hard.

Of course it is - you've been through a lot. And let's face it, parenthood comes with it's own set of never ending worries and tendancies to over analyse

Other than the mc at 10wks, I've never had a problem ttc yet I'm still over thinking everything!

I hope you get the result you want and that this time everything will be ok.

I'm driving myself mad.

Do you have someone in RL who you can talk to? Obviously you can talk to DH, but I mean someone who is a little less 'involved' in this. Otherwise is it worth having a chat to your GP about how you feel?

I just wonder whether you could do with offloading all this stress onto someone else, maybe a counsellor?

The more you internalise this the worse you're going to feel.

Chin up lovey.

Thanks. Yes GP suggested counselling. I also have reflexology. I don't think most people really get it in RL but I do have lots of people around me. DP is very very good. According to my book on miscarriage my odds of having another miscarriage next time (or this time if it turns out I'm pg) is 19%. I guess the odds are in my favour.

Thankyou so much for replying.

Oh it's ok. I hate to see threads like this where someone feels so down.

The chances are good then. I've just googled and you have a 25% chance of getting pg each cycle (even when you're trying apparently!) so you know that you can achieve that. If you can achieve the 25% chance then you can nail the 19% on the mc rate.

Reflexology is great - plenty of ME time. I think that some talking therapy would be beneficial too.

I hope things look up for you soon.