Obsession confession

[BrownB]

Rant alert!

When did this happen to me? Man. My life and head used to be focussed on things outside my body. The pregnancy and mc last year completely changed all that.

Am now completely and utterly internalising every-bloody-twitch and movement inside my tummy and am convinced every bloody month that I am pregnant. Am totally fed up with it. In the past few weeks have even gone all scientific with it all - mn , ff, bbt, opk, blah blah bloody blah. [Took a little while to figure out all the acronyms]

Sorry for the rant, but am on CD21 of probably 25 and am going to be gutted if/when I get my period and am totally and utterly sick of this rollercoaster. Really wish I could turn it off. God knows I've tried to be cool, calm, go with the flow, achieve zen... and every month this bubbling excitement hits me at this time, and the phantom twinges fit all the symptoms and every bloody month, I'm crushed when my period starts.

So, meanwhile, I've dipped into other threads with bits and pieces, and they're very funny and encouraging and I feel like I'm not alone in this, which is very cool. I've discovered more acronyms than the army (!) and have restrained myself from having a big rant. But today I've had a bad day of obsessing about what's going on in my tummy.

Here endeth the rant.

Feel free to share the frustration!

Amen and snap! Couldn't have put it better myself. This is EXACTLY my experience. You have summed me up completely down to a T. Thankyou :-)

Yup, I was there too.

Snap! feel just the same and before my m/c I also used to have a normal life where i did not spend hours each day pondering the workings of my reproductive organs.
Am obsessed with opking, symptom spotting, preg testing, boob poking etc and so on and so forth. Haven't got the hang of temping yet but getting bizarre results is another thing I worry about.

You are right, it is a roller coaster and is such a bummer when you realise you've got to get straight back on it all over again. Am also a few days before AF, which I am almost certain will come as timing was way out this month.

I wish I could not obsess. I really do. but having a baby is the most important thing in my mind at the moment. obsessing won't make it more likely to happen though!

Aaarrrgghhh! I want my brain back!! Am guessing that actually having a baby doesn't really aid with this though..

I have found coming up with a good plan b has helped, DH and I decided last week that if I don't get the BFP by Christmas, we are going to book a trip to somewhere you can't take a baby then stop TTC for a couple of months. I don't know if that will work for you, but I have found it's done a lot for me and I'm obsessing less

ooooh, we so need a thread like this.

I never thought it would happen, but I am officially obsessed! DH & I have been trying for 3 years and got PG in Feb, but had an early MC in March - ever since then I've been obsessed.
MN conception threads read daily - Check
VIP member of FF - Check
BBT taken every morning - check
Checking CM & CP - extreme obsess check
Weeing on sticks for 7 days a month - check
Homing in on every tummy twinge, lumpy boob, churning stomach & dizzy head - check
Referring to TCOYF every two minuites - check
Getting my hopes up on CD28 and then having them shot down on CD29 - Check, check, effing check

Phew! It's hard work!

So much for if you stop obsessing it'll happen! How can you stop obsessing - please tell me???

I like the idea of a ski holiday to stop my obsession... I'm going skiing over Christmas. That will stop me!!

Still, nice consolation prize!
:)

Oh and a gin this weekend if all goes as expected. grrr..

Is being tired and in a foul mood a good sign?