after five years ttc, 12 mc's and 1 ep you'd think i would have learned my lesson wouldnt you? help me to not test.

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ok, so we were going to stop. i was all set and had an appointment booked to have the mirena fitted, when dh said he wasnt ready to stop trying just yet. so we agreed on 1 more year. my hormones have been all over the place since my last mc, with my last period arriving a week early, spotting between bleeds and mood swings that were almost schizophrenic. but, my period is due today (i think) and i am 15dpo, and im getting my clearblue craving. we have a wedding saturday so if i dont have a period before then i shall have to test anyway, but i dont want to yet.

but i do.

half of me would be happy to not find out if i were up the pole til my waters broke, the other half (the one who always peeks at her xmas prressies) is whispering "test... test... test"

help me keep my resolve.

Oh lissielou you've been through the ringer (complete understatment). I can't imagine what it's been like for you. I don't really know what the answer is for you but I've always wanted to know one way or another as then at least I'm not worrying about something I don't know about. Probably not helping you, or making sense. How long has your cycle been recently, are you sure you're 15 DPO? If so then a test should be accurate. Have you had any investigations done as to why you suffered recurrent miscarriages?

i get ov pains and monitor cm so am definately 15dpo, but i really want to put off testing for as long as possible. ive had pretty much all the tests and nothing has been established, i do however, get told to go on holiday, a lOT

Awh lissielouwww, no answers here either, but I guess knowing or not knowing isn't going to change/impact things.

I would test too, but then I always peek at presents... Although usually regret it.

Good luck with whatever you decide. I am hoping and praying that this is it for you.

DON'T TEST Lissie. I tested today and it was bfn, so I can't really blame you for the wanting/not wanting to know. I know you have to test in the next week, due to your ep, but please don't put yourself through the torture of being in limbo land, better to stay in denial right now..... distract yourself. I will be watching you..... . Besides now our cycles are back in sync, I plan for it to be another month before we are preggos together. Not sure I am helping here but .....
DON'T TEST !

lissie just wanting to hold your hand and wish you well. If anyone deserves this it's you.

I am hoping you won't be drinking on Saturday and alas I can't keep away from hpt's myself so am crap at advising against.

Fingers tightly crossed for you. x

thanks. I will buy a test on weds if i am periodless by then. remember when it was simple?

galwaygal, heres to summer babies!!!

Hand holding here too Lissie.

DO NOT test until Wednesday! Do you have a decent consultant at the moment.

ok, no period. it is officially late. not getting hopes up though, been here too many times but will buy a test tomorrow, just ion case.

shit.

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Hi Lia how are things with you? Sorry for the hijack!

Good luck lissie :) xx

Holds Lissie's hand xx

I don't think I've 'met' you before but it sounds like you have had your share of upset (yours and about 10 other people's too )

Try to hold on until you really need to know at the week-end.

I'm really just marking my place on here - cos I wanna know if you're preggers now .

Good luck.
x

course she's preggers hippy

Waves to lou hiya, 15 wks Thursday and still feel like complete shit, am trying to be positive and all that but I just wanna feel normal again.

Sorry lissie I hope that doesn't come across as insensitive, I know you'd give anything to feel as shit as I do right now. Nearly Wednesday. :)

lia wow you made it this far. My fingers are still crossed for you x

lia, thats great news!!

i feel a bit weird about it all tbh. am oddly torn between being really cynical and wanting to stick my fingers in my ears and being optimistic.

Sorry quick hi-jack.

lia I know you feel crap right now but it really is fab that you've got to 15 weeks and as soon as you feel better you will be able to get excited about this little one.

Good luck lissielou.

period has started.

fuck it.

I'm sorry Lissie :(.

Fucksticks.

Hugs to you x

Well that's horrid for you . Does the fact that it came today mean your cycle has lengthened slightly? Could that be a good thing for next month though?

Sorry, honey. It's all so shitty isn't it!

im hoping that this means my cycle is starting to get back to normal. am not surprised, just pissed orf.

Oh lissie thats crap. Hopefully you're right about your cycle though.

Hugs. x

oh hun please be kind to yourself the urge to test never goes away I still get the same feelings each month and I know I will not be pregnant again