I'm soooo pissed off with my body! stupidly did a test yesterday(2 actually) not with fmu, and only 10 dpo (never get a twp be4 13dpo)and got 2 twp!wtf???, so was getting all excited thinking wow 10dpo!!!.
Got up at 3am and did another...and yes was bfn...hense didn't sleep and did yet another at 8am which is fainter than yesterdays!!!! what a total muppet I am!.
So now am thinking my body played a trick on me, and has now changed it's mind...nice.
After the mc in May and chemical last month I'm totally disheartened with the whole ttc business...Dr has binned me off on both ocassions, and told me as I have 2 dc it will happen! but I'm 38 now and with a new dp, who has no dc!...have booked in again on Thursday, just not prepared to sit and wait anymore!...it's too much of an emotional rollercoaster.
Sorry for the me, me and more me post...but can't tell anybody in RL...af not officially due till Wed/Thurs...do you think there is any hope? or am I kidding myself?...any advice or experience with this would be sooo appreciated x