Do you ever wonder if perhaps you aren't actually meant to have another child?

[TheLadyOfTheGreenKirtle]

this month has bought another CP. Im seriously starting to think that my body is just not capable of carrying another child. taking into consideration my teitzes too, maybe i should accept that ds will be an only. maybe im just not supposed to have the large family that i always dreamt of. mother nature is putting her foot down (at least thats how it feels) and no matter how unfair and frustrating and devestating it is i should stop forcing us all through this month after month after month.

Yes, it does feel that way sometimes.

Compared with you though, I've been insanely lucky.

Did you have an appointment with somebody vv clever lined up?

i have the money for my first appointment with mr shehata in my savings account, but dh lost his job so we are trying to save the money for tests/travel etc. that way we can get it all done at the same time iykwim.

the thing is, i know that in 2w i will be slinking up to dh jessica rabbit stylee. i need some checks run on mid cycle pains, spotting, hormonal imbalance. but i think that the odds are just too long now. if i were a horse you wouldnt even bet a penny on me!

i have the money for my first appointment with mr shehata in my savings account, but dh lost his job so we are trying to save the money for tests/travel etc. that way we can get it all done at the same time iykwim.

the thing is, i know that in 2w i will be slinking up to dh jessica rabbit stylee. i need some checks run on mid cycle pains, spotting, hormonal imbalance. but i think that the odds are just too long now. if i were a horse you wouldnt even bet a penny on me!

Yes I know what you mean about hope springing eternal each fortnight.

My DH doesn't want to ttc at the moment (had ep just over 2 months ago) so feel in limbo.

Sorry to hear about your DH's job. Good that you've got the stash to see Mr. Shehata - gives another little ray of hope in the future. It's so hard because you just lurch between these little rays of hope and the lows in between are so very low.

sorry about your ep, they are awful arent they? how were you treated?

Luckily, really well. It did help having just read spookycharlotte's thread though!

Left tube gone and still getting loads of pains all over the place. Am assuming that's fairly normal though. The worst pains seem to be ovulation ones though this month it was only one day (had been 4-5 days).

You said you were having mid-cycle pain - any theories on that?

i still get odd pains nearly 4 years on! has your cons been helpful?

i think the midcycle pains etc may be down to fibroids or cysts.

I don't have a consultant! I went to my GP when I had crippling ov pains during the 1st cycle after the ep. He looked at me blankly then sent me back to the hospital where a doctor looked at me blankly. He eventually agreed with me that it could be ovulation!

I was just relieved there was nothing bad that immediately came to his mind. I asked him if endometriosis would have been seen during the salpingectomy (sp?)and he said yes. I'm not sure how true this is though.

it does take a while for your body to adjust afterward. your body is missing something that was there before (iykwim) so it will take a bit for ov to get back to normal.

I started getting ov pains about 2 years ago - seems to be more common as you get older and have had a child.

Yours is a different story though. I hope you can get to see this guy soon and that he comes up with something a bit more helpful. It's dire for you.

thank you. its frustrating. exactly the same thing has happened again. my temp soared, tummy bloated and i started vomiting and shaking. its fecking obvious that my issue is with immunity.

For it to be so consistent makes it all the more frustrating. How can NOBODY know what it is? Those are not standard symptoms for a miscarriage so why aren't you at least getting more acknowledgement?

Not helping I know but so frustrated for you.

ive spoken to our RMC cons about it and he has dismissed me. just wants to give me heparin ffs.

Gives the NHS such a bad name when they're dismissive like that. Here's to Mr. Shehata, fingers crossed.

In response to the OP, yes this is exactly how I feel after 2 years of TTC#2 and one mc.
Every month feels like a complete failure, I spend about a week crying and I just want to move on and accept what I am incredibly lucky to have. I too have a medical condition that stops me ovulating without drugs, they make me feel sick and after a year of taking them I am not sure I can be arsed feeling crap all the time.
TheLadyOfTheGreenKirtle I hope your appointment goes well.