Now, these feelings could be baby blues I'm not sure as I gave birth to my 2nd son 9 days ago.
My dh has decided he wants to book himself in for 'the snip'
We have 3 beautiful children and he has made no secret that he doesn't want anymore - in fact he didn't want more than 2 - he had a 3rd because I wanted more children (I've always wanted 4).
I don't feel like I'm done having children but I respect his decision and won't ask him to have more just to accommodate my wants. The thought of him having surgery as well is just horrible (I have a fear of surgery).
I just need advice on how to deal with this.
Right now I can't bear the thought of never being pregnant again. I've washed all of my maternity clothes and can't quite believe I'll never wear them again. I found a blank set of ante-natal notes and I'm hesitating giving them back - although I have no sane reason for keeping them. Sentimental? Or just crazy?
I never take for granted how blessed I am to have 3 healthy and beautiful children when so many people struggle to have 1, this thread probably makes me sound very selfish too but I feel so overwhelmed trying to face this. Maybe I'm just weak or weird I don't know.
I realise I've probably posted this in the wrong topic but I remember getting so much support here whilst ttc and also after my mc - I guess I'm hoping for the same kind of support.
xxx