I feel my family resent me

[Justkeepswimming88]

This is going to be long so apologies!

I’ve been suffering with chronic pain and fatigue on and off for a few years,but solidly with no respite for 2 years. Most likely fibromyalgia but due to a few things am yet to be officially diagnosed. Since Christmas I’m also suffering with bowel issues so am sick a lot (vomiting, constipation, diarrhoea)
Genuinely unwell and in pain constantly. I try my best to get on with life but at times that’s impossible and I have days where I cannot move,can’t stop crying and just feel like giving up. My family (parents,siblings) make me feel like a huge inconvenience to them.They don’t support me and are just on at me all the time because they want me to go out with them,go on trips etc. I have a wonderful husband who I love so much but even he lately is seeming to be annoyed at the “loss” of his wife. I’m not sure how to carry on whilst feeling like a burden. Husband keeps saying he wishes he could make me better, that makes me feel worse. I’m just rambling here to get it off my chest as I’m feeling so terribly low. Anyone in the same boat?

I know exactly how you feel, you are mourning for your own life and it doesn’t help when friends and family get “compassion fatigue” my DH will often ask “are you normal sore or new sore?” I mean what kind of question is that? It’s hard enough living with chronic pain (I’m awake at this time as I’m too sore to sleep) knowing that everyday you’re going to wake up in pain and there’s not much you can do about it without people people dismissive.

I can understand because we don’t look unwell, we look the same. I found sending people some info on fibromyalgia helpful, you could try that. You have my sympathy it’s not easy [flower]