I’m lying in bed tonight and it’s going to be a long night. I’m in a lot of pain and sleep don’t come easy tonight, my sciatica is b painful tonight as is my ribs, knees, back and jaw. I’ll have to wait until I’m exhausted to actually sleep. I’ve taken all the painkillers I can for the day.
I have fibromyalgia, Raynauds, TMJD, sciatica, chronic migraines, anxiety and depression. I’ve recently had to drop from full time to 3 days a week at work as full time was too much for me, Im going to see how I cope with 3 days. My main emotion is guilt Im a rotten mum and partner now as im always in bed, I come in from work and go to bed, sometimes im so sore and tired I sleep through dinner and wake at 8pm, do a bit of work and go back to bed at 10pm. Friday nights im in bed for 8pm weekends I have afternoon naps. Im not the person I was I hardly go out, I can’t walk far or I get sore, im slow. Inside im always asleep it’s a joke amongst my DC.
So a friend suggested I apply for Adult Disability Payment (PIP). Equivalent in Scotland. It’s £60 a week she suggested I use it for a chiropractor/massage to help my pain levels as since im dropping days Money will be tight.
I thought I had no chance but thought why not, when it came back I had been rejected and I only got 2 points because im in pain after I shower. That was it. Nothing about the agonising chronic pain condition I live with everyday and all the medication I have to take to try and live a half normal life.
I know im am not the only one to face this but it’s my first experience of “the system” and im sure there are so many people out there so much worse than I am that have been rejected.