I'm not normally someone who dreads Xmas but this year I'm just dreading it. I've got two young ones and I feel awful that I can't get into the Xmas spirit. I'm crying very night and dragging myself through everyday.
It all just feels like too much and more jobs on my to do list. I've got family members coming I can't stand and someone who I adore can't come this year. I don't want to wish my time away and I know I should be savouring these precious days but it's all too hard.
How can I shake myself into action?