I'm sure most people will think I'm crazy but I find Christmas a little unsettling - this morning I felt grief for a relative of mine who is almost 10 years deceased very acutely. This initiated a barrage of feelings all day about my closest family dying and no longer being around at Christmas. We have had a couple of deaths recently so I know this is playing on my mind. Can't imagine life without people who are here this Christmas but know at some point I'll have to do Christmas without them...can anyone relate?!