This year I invited my parents for Christmas and ended up hosting both sides out of “fairness”. They both stayed over. So, I’ve been prepping, cleaning, shopping, washing and ironing since about 19th Dec, up until last night. Yesterday I spent all day washing and clearing up after them. Today I return to my FT job.
Everyone got lovely thoughtful gifts, except me. I know that sounds childish, but last night I felt deflated and upset. My Christmas went by in a flash, catering for everyone else.
I didn’t volunteer for the above, in fact I put my foot down and said I wasn’t doing it in Nov, but it ended up this way again.
The main thing for me is the lack of thought, when I am the one shouldering all the work.
Next year I am adamant I am not hosting. Also, I am buying extended family less as they put no thought into anything for me. I even got told “oh, you buy lovely presents, ours are nothing like that”. Well, why not put some effort in??????
One family relative got presents from us, then we went out for a walk in town, they saw some things they liked in the sales, and got upset so I ended up buying for them for their upcoming birthday.
I know a lot of it is me. I’m too f#cking nice. I am writing myself a letter to open next Christmas, reminding myself what I’m not doing.