I really enjoyed Christmas and the build up with the kids, and felt so grateful that after some family traumas over the past few years, inc serious health problems that DD was born with, our Christmas was peaceful and healthy. We had a lovely day at my Mum’s for Christmas. But today I feel depressed and struggling to snap out of it! Spent Boxing Day the 4 of us (with young DC 4 and under), we were meant to be seeing friends but they cancelled due to flu. Found DH irritating— I’d booked a lovely pub for lunch 20 mins the other side of town, which he thought too far to go. Then he fussed so much about the kids‘ food all day, as he’s bit obsessive and is fixated on them eating well. I struggle when he’s home for the holidays and feel I shouldn’t. DS plays up a lot more when we’re all together and DH rises to his bait with such intensity it ends up just feeling a bit unbearable and we have to split into two pairs to keep the peace. I feel depressed that this is our family life and I’m stuck with DH’s intense ways. I need to cheer up!