Hi everyone, I wonder if any of you have thoughts on this-
I have been through a few difficult situations in life with my conditions becoming overwhelmed. They are different to me. Three times in life I have been overwhelmed to a severe degree, once in 2014, 2022 and 2025. In 2014 I wasn’t going out much as I felt a bit phobic due to an eating disorder and my health deteriorated and got too much to cope and God gave me help. However, other members in the body became overwhelmed my autism and acted out of character and started saying all things to me and it caused me restrict my eating further and I ended up in hospital from 2015-2018. I had in the moment therapy in hospital, but never looking on my past life as I have never liked it.
Then in 2022 another incident came when I wrote my testimony which I loved doing, may be one of my conditions got overwhelmed with going more public and feared harm. Then I got insulted and like paint thrown over me all my efforts like drenched and it got to me.
Then in 2025 from 2023-2024 I was seriously unwell to October. I nearly died. I didn’t know where I was under a BMI 11 in weight, but doing much better now. A lot of change happened from 2022, I was discharged from the eating disorder services but went back in February 2023. There was to be no more inpatients and I was a very still low weight looking like I was left to pass away at home.
Then I started to recover and things were difficult to predict, lots of change in the body and with inflammation and pain which has improved. I was getting a new job as a hospital chaplain volunteer and thought I needed to go further and be more reliable in behaviour to handle praying for people if needed and wanted to give up more eating disorder behaviour and one of my conditions just reacted and starting attacking perhaps my routine was becoming too changed for them.
First words came flying out paranoid which I am never..was an insult. Then calling me an infidel and evil Christian and it went and on. It has lasted months but God has suppressed it. A lots of insults came my way and it extremely difficult but it was in God’s hands. Some of the insults wrest my words but I am pushing through. I have a very nervous system to and with movements itself my can blurt out an odd word.
Now with therapy I have never had it. When I look back to try and learn I remember things I cannot cope with and it doesn’t help. It is commonly said that we need therapy after something very difficult. Is this true. Hospital chaplaincy has now asked me to do activity coordinating like playing games with the residents and another hospital I will be looking to do the chaplaincy as a volunteer and training next week. They look after people well.The sort advice I would try and give is not deep therapy.
This therapy is getting to me, Christ can do anything, but then I think of this therapy which I have never had. How do you know if you need it and can you get away with not doing and handling it with your faith. I found with the fugee I had from holding things in with no recovery mentally. Hope it never comes back. Been over a year now since it has gone.
Doing good today, moving on, but no therapy as such. I don’t want things coming out again past things not treated and how do you close things for good. I am not good with emotions and don’t really feel much and struggle to identify them much. This therapy if I need is a stumbling block mentally like giving all trust to Christ who allows you go for spiritual counselling..like giving it to Christ but saying you need counselling to. Like saying you need it can may be limit you from moving on.