My almost 5 year old son is exhibiting some extremely difficult behaviour, in and out of school, both school and myself believe his frustration is down to his severe speech delay which he is having therapy for. However we do also believe there is ‘something else’. School witnessed a huge, disproportionate (to us) meltdown at school pick up over a cookie and it was the icing on the cake so to speak. We have a GP appointment on Friday to discuss a peads referral for him.
Today at speech therapy, he was more ‘out of control’ than usual, dad usually takes him as we also have a 1 year old who can be quite distracting to him but I did it today (along with daughter). He always plays up with me more and people have said it’s because I’m his ‘safe space’.
He has also started covering his ears a lot and become sensitive to sounds, this is very new.
My main worry and reason for posting… he was very unwell when he was first born, it took me 6 weeks in the peak of covid to get anyone to listen to me, I had a consultant call me a neurotic first time mum to my face. He was later diagnosed with a rare cleft after me fighting. However this left me with a major distrust and left me convinced he was going to die for about 18 months. I had and still have therapy.
I am worried that they are going to blame me for a potential neurodivergence but I know my anxiety is just quite heightened at the moment.
Am I doing the right thing by fighting his corner? He needs help 100% but I’m scared they will blame it on me being anxious when he was younger, if I’m even making sense…
He is such a wondeful, intelligent and amazing little boy who is massively struggling as are we. I just want to help him :(
thanks x