I feel like such a bad mother and I don't know how to change things.
I have a 7 year old and a 1 year old.
I changed careers recently and I now work full time.
We are doing a huge renovation a house and a half onto our current house mainly ourselves and its been going on for 2 years and is still not finished.
Baby still wakes multiple times a night and I'm constantly tired.
I just feel like I can't summon the energy to be a fun mum. All i feel I do is nag, stress and go on at my children not the 1 year old obviously but the 7 year old. I feel I expect a lot from her and I can't remember the last time I actually laughed with her or did anything fun.
I feel like my relationship is suffering as well.
I hate the house and I'm embarrassed to have anyone around so socialising doesn't happen either
I'm just so fed up but I'm worried how I'm affecting my girls the way I am all the time