Really sorry for the long post. Just looking for a space to clear my head really as I'm on my own with DH away for the weekend and I can feel my worries spiralling.
DD is 7 months old (will be 8 months next week). She is our second baby, but our first to come home as we sadly lost our first child at 33 weeks of pregnancy.
Neither myself or DH have much experience with babies, so we're very much learning on the go. DD is as far as I know on track with everything developmentally. She's been sitting unaided since 6 months, rolling since around 4 months (though she stopped doing it for a while and just started again). Doing really well with weaning, babbles mamama and dadada etc.
However, the past week or so I've noticed these moments where she seems to suddenly do a little twitch or little jump for a moment whilst she's awake, or she will sit almost stiffly squeeze both hands 3/4 times really hard. I mentioned it to DH, but he wasn't worried and neither was my mum. They tried to reassure me that it will just be something new that she's learnt she can do, so she's doing it on repeat. I've tried to just keep it at the back of my mind, but try not to let it overwhelm me with anxious thoughts as I usually would.
But tonight I've been sat watching her on the baby monitor and whilst asleep she seemed startled and threw her arms and legs into the air twice in a row, all while asleep. I've seen her so this before and not given it a second thought, but because of the twitching I decided to Google what it meant. After a Google, I can see that this is the startle reflex or moro reflex.
I've seen that this should go away by six months and that if it hasn't you should consult your doctor. Other things have said it can be a sign of cerebral palsy if it continues past 6 months. This immediately made my heart sink, as our first child died due to a stroke and seizure in the womb, and we were told if he had lived he would have had cerebral palsy. Following his death, we had genetic testing which revealed that I had passed on a faulty gene that I carry (though it's mosaic in myself), which had caused the strokes and seizures. When I was pregnant with DD we had a CVS done at 12 weeks which confirmed she does not carry the faulty gene, however it only checked for that specific genetic condition.
So I've now got myself into a complete panic. I've always been worried about DD due to losing our son, but seeing the relation to cerebral palsy has completely thrown me.
I know people may not have any experience with this specific thing, but any advice would be welcome. I will be taking her to the doctor's on Monday, just feeling worried and alone in my thoughts at the moment!
Thank you xx