Guilt over DD's illness.

[PlumFairy2014]

My DD is 2 and a half. She had a cold over the weekend, but was totally fine in the day and just a bit sniffly at night.
We ended up in an ambulance and in hospital overnight yesterday. It was a viral wheeze and she needed inhalers, oxygen and steroids.
We are home now and she is much better, napping right now.
I just can't shake the enormous feeling of guilt. Why would a cold go to her chest and make her so poorly? Did I do something wrong? I'm going over her diet, routine and everything in my head. I just feel awfully guilty, even though everyone says it's one of those things.
I'm still in my clothes from yesterday morning as I just don't want to leave her for even a minute. I should sleep after being in hospital over night, but I keep imagining her having the same breathing episode while she naps.
She was in NICU after she was born and it was the same hospital. The same consultant was in the paediatric ward last night as when she was born. I feel the panic I felt when she was born and I just couldn't do anything to make her better. It took months to be able to leave her with anyone, she was 9 months before I left her with DH for a couple of hours and the same anxiety has come back.
She's my world and I'm so scared.

I shall call the lovely Dr on Monday and ask her for another one.
Poor babe is so sleepy this morning. Even turned down a trip to the park.
We have tickets to the circus for this afternoon, so hoping after a nap and another dose she will enjoy it. She has been so excited to go.

Mine had exactly the same a few months ago.

He got progressively worse over a few days and I held off calling the ambulance until 4am when he was up to 60 odd breaths a minute. His oxygen levels were at 86% and yeah, I felt pretty awful having waited so long.

He had a day in hospital with steroids and nebulisers and he was fine.

My sons nursery has an inhaler and spacer there incase it happens their, think they had to use it once as a precaution.
It does get easier to deal with the more it happens, and my DS seemed to recover quicker with every episode.
Hope you make/made it to the circus. Xx

*there

I think she would be more likely to take it for her nursery worker than me Ames!

I felt like that Rise, but whenever I have been before I have felt like I was wasting their time and have gone too far the other way. Children react so differently to adults, even though DD can talk quite well she never said how ill she was feeling. Throughout the whole thing she never grumbled, until she was feeling better and demanding ice cream because she was ill....

We went to the circus though. Hooray!
Very tired, but very happy DD.

This is just doctors. Either they give you a "why are you here?" look or they say things like "you should have brought him in earlier Mrs Barbarian." I've had both within the course of an afternoon when a croupy cough got worse (at 4pm GP was rolling their eyes at being bothered, 4 hours later A&E doc was tutting at me for waiting to long). Don't worry about it.

Exactly Barbarian! Like we should have in depth medical training to be Mums. I had one ask if DD was my first before he even looked at her...