Hold my hand and tell me i'm not the worst mother ever.

[SleepyCaz]

We have been skint for a while now, so I have gone back to working nights, in my job as an auxiliary nurse in A and E. I work 7-8. Catch 2 buses across town to work so have to leae early.
While getting ready tonight, DD, 3 has just had a horrible accident and smashed her face onto the table. Blood pouring everywhere. DH had just come in and I was not far off needing to go to get the bus. Looked at DDs mouth and she has a huge gash in her gum and we think her tooth is loose :(
Long story short, I am on the bus to work, DH is dropping DS with my parents round the corner and taking DD to Childrens A and E. I am absolutely gutted and feel like such a bitch having to come to work, but she's with DH, and we just can't afford for me to lose my shift :( I should have stayed shouldn't I?

Oh darling you're not a bad mum at all!

Firstly accidents happen

Also, she will be with her daddy!

Will you be able to concentrate on work? Are you ok?

You're not a bad mum, you would have dealt with it if your do was on his way out, will you be able to concentrate though?

Your not a bad mum at all. Saturday I left a poorly DS1 in bed with DH and had to take a poorly DS2(5mths) to A & E. It could have easily been the other way round and i stayed at home. She is with her daddy.

It's horrible having to leave them when you feel you shouldn't - far worse for you than her, she's with her Daddy. You are working - it's not as though you chose to go on a girls night out! I hope it's not as bad as it looked x

its not nice to leave them when all you want to do is make them all better, but daddies can make it all better too, hope she is ok x

Your part of the same team.....your DH sounds as though he has things under control. Dont worry, you sound like a great mum getting out earning money for the family, well done you x x x

Hello :)

Thank you for your replies :)

DD is fine, sitting on sofa watching Disney Junior. VERY swollen mouth/face,and very tired, but more or less OK. The cut had split the gum, but couldn't be stitched, due to where it was. She's to have no hot food or drinks for 48 hours, back to GP in 5 days to check for infection, and possibly to see if the tooth is actually loose or not. It didn't seem it, he said, but was difficult to tell around the swelling.

As for having to leave DD :( The only good thing is that because I work at the hospital, I basically arrived at my dept for my shift, told them what had happened, and I was able to keep popping down every half hour or so, to see DD and DH. Managed to miss her being triaged AND seen by the doctor though, which is when she got most upset, DH said.

She's having a pajama day with Mummy today, and no preschool because she's shattered. They were in the hosp til gone 10pm.

I'm knackered too,my shift was chaos and i finished at 8, in the end, even though I was hoping for an early one. Never mind! Only 8 hours until I can go to bed!

Thanks again, MN :)

Glad she's ok - poor little thing!

Lots of cuddles for her today then

Can I ask, how did you become a nurse auxiliary? Did you degree etc shamelessly looking for career advice

Thanks, OWO

Lots of Dora and lots of Ready Brek, so far

I started my Nursing training, to become a qualified Staff Nurse, when my DS was 20 months old, did my first year, completed it, then had a 'break' to have DD, who is now 3.2. I haven't been able to afford the childcare to do my last two years yet, so am going to finish when DD is at school full time, next year.
While I was a student nurse, the hospital I worked for was advertising for NA's (Healthcare Assistants, Healthcare Support Workers, it's all the same role/band, but different places call it different things). You didn't need any care qualifications as such, but some experience, which I had due to my practise placements in the hospital. There was a day long interview process with a maths test and a literacy test.
I now work for the Nurse bank, which means I book my own shifts week to week, and often work on different shifts each time. It's very flexible, and if I don't want to/can't work for any reason, I just don't book any shifts. Likewise, if there is a week or four two where we are very skint, I can book one every day, or even switch to nights, for the bigger money. As long as you're not at all fussy where you work, department-wise, there are enough shifts to work full time, most of the year, if you wanted to. Downside - no holiday pay, no sick pay, no annual leave. You don't book shifts, you don't get paid. The flexibilty is amazing though, and it's a lifesaver :)