Now I am full of regrets.
We are giving notice anyway as we are moving so there is not much to do other than chalk it up for experience.
From what I can tell CM has TV on constantly, both DP and I have brought this up with her (as we specified when interviewing we did not want our DD to watch too much tv) but then we sort of gave up and became resigned to the situation and just made sure she didn't see much TV at home. DD was settling in by this stage and I didn't want to move her knowing we were about to move at some point.
This morning I find my CM has 8 children when she is allowed 5 (last week she had 6 at one point). What is that all about? She was taking some to school so would not be overminding for long but that is not the point. I feel so let down. If she is willing to flout the rules so obviously what else is she willing to do?
I felt that above all she was a loving and caring person so the odd little things like TV did not matter too much in the scheme of it but I never thought she would break the rules like this. I feel like I don't know her at all.
I'm sure some of this is mummy guilt. I felt very strongly that I wanted to use a CM and not a nursery and I met so many CM until I felt I really had found the right one but despite all of this I have still let my DD down.
I don't feel I would trust a CM again and it makes me feel sad.