OK, long post I'm afraid....
DH (?!) moved out in early Nov (looks permanent, won't bore you with the detail), knock on effect was needed to get a fulltime live-out nanny to start in early Jan, replacing 2 days of DH childcare and 3 days of lovely childminder for 2xDDs. Through fog of misery due to domestic earthquake, got my act together and went through rigorous recruitment process to get fab, well qualified and referenced nanny. 1st 2 weeks of Jan virtual write-off due to snow and her taking a day off sick, then 1 blissful week where she came every day, DDs loved her, I loved her, all great....... then she texts me to say she is ill. Cut a long story short, she has been off the last 2 weeks, in contact mostly through text and email, 1 phone conversation but other attempts I have made to speak with her put off by her. Doctor visits, bloodtests, pain relief meds etc etc. But emails back end of last week saying she was feeling much better and what hours did I need her this week, how much she was looking forward to coming back.
I have been paying her in full, paying my old childminder to cover some of the days, had my folks helping out etc. All with the commitment from nanny that she would be back today. Imagine my concern to get a text at 6.30 this morning saying she had had a bad night, in pain, no way she could work.
I feel so torn, I need a reliable lovely person to leave my gorgeous girls with, so I can earn the money to pay the mortgage etc and keep it all together at this horrible time...... but I don't want to treat nanny badly..........
any thoughts? Just makes me feel better having got that lot out of my system