CM Club:Feeling divided - don't know what to do

[Katymac]

I have a great job, I do enjoy it

I am finding it very stressful atm everything is very hard & I guess because of DH I am struggling to cope

Instinctively I feel that 'going out to work' would be wrong for me; but the idea of more money is tempting. But would a job be even more stressful - doing what other people tell me, following rules I didn't design

I'm feeling all conflicted atm don't even know why I posted

Katymac sorry to hear you are feeling this way. I think the answer to your question depends on who you are, so only you know the answer!

I swapped from nannying to childminding (so less £) as I really hated the chores part of nannying, like the washing and ironoing etc I just want to paint and sing and dance and splash in puddles! I also like the idea of being my own boss and being able to dictate my own day (wit reason obviously!).

It's all swings and roundabouts isn't it. Is there a way you could dip your toe into "going out to work" without taking the plunge?

I just don't know anymore

It's just really hard to get it all done atm

Could you just let a few things slide to ease of some pressure?? Is there one main thing that is getting to you?

Wish I could be more helpful as you sound like a brill childminder (nursery-ish manager-ish something) from your posts her. Be a shame if children were deprived of that.

Is it your daughters school again??

DH is in hospital on Friday (in Papworth) & it's the staff night out

There is so much paperwork & I am settling in 2 new ones

I have staff ill, and children ill, & there is the thing with DD's school

So I am short staffed so even less paperwork gets done

I never really caught up from the summer when DH was in last time

& I'm a bit broke

I sometimes think about the relative comfort of returning to an office job, but I think I have been my own boss for too long and the office politics and time wasting would drive me mad.

Hmm working for someone else.....maybe not

Could you earn the same without the staff, just thinking maybe cut back to a 4 full days and no staff, worth doing the maths to see how you could up your earnings but doing less work.
To be honest though its this time of year gets to everyone, not enough daylight hours, to get outside means wellies and coats, its all more work and you just want to be able to enjoy xmas with your own family.
Have you booked the xmas hols off, I close on the 17th and reopen on the 5th, I am soo looking forward to a break. stuff the paperwork I am putting it all in the cupboard till next year.

My health is so shakey I couldn't depend upon it - so I can't really work by myself.

Cutting down is a good idea tho' & I am going somewhere hot at Christmas - but tbh that is more stress

Is it possible for you to delegate some of the planning/obs to someone else?. I try but I'm such a control freak I sit behind and interfere so just do it myself, but it does get you down when you know your behind with things and the todo list runs over several pages.

Try to relax and enjoy over your hols. Very at the hot place btw.

Yep - the plan is to delegate in January & for the girls to be key people & me not to be - but whether it will actually happen I don't know

DH has tests on Friday & we won't get the results until february which is probably most of the problem

This time of year is stressful enough for most people. You have added stressful things to deal with as well as Xmas.
Delegate as much as you can to others.
Don't make any rush decisions, try not to make any decisions... just plod along as you are for a few months and look at this again in say March after you have DH's test results back.
Enjoy your holiday in the hot place as much as you can.

aww Katy - you are amazing - you are always helpful on here and i think that your problem is that you care too much - if that makes sense?
i guess at this time of year we do start to think about change - i'd say get this year out of the way - try not to stress about paperwork - and enjoy your holiday

Horrible, horrible day

Aww not any better?

Is their anything I can do to help? would be happy to do some stuff by remote if it helps.

Not really but thanks for asking

I have to do the invoices for January, December Wages, get the presents wrapped for the party, newsletter & menu written, settling in (paperwork)done, photos to print out......& my laptop died