So here goes, bear with me its a bit complicated. Id had an enquiry about looking after a little one, couldnt do it at the time but met the Mum and said if anything came up I would let her know. Something did come up and we met again with hubby, i did an introductory session which went well, a few weeks later she came round to sign contracts. When it came to the hours they were different to what I had thought she said, it went from being 6hours at a fixed time every week to being maybe 5hours but at different times from week to week. I was a bit flawed but carried on regardless thinking we would make it work. It wasnt until later that the enormity of it hit me and I realised it totally wasnt what I wanted to do...the time change on off weeks meant that I would end up with lots of after schoolers plus a baby to look after...the thing is I dont mind doing lots of afterschoolers if I am hands free,i.e no baby but lots of afterschoolers plus a baby makes me nervous to say the least....when I say a lot I mean 8 plus my own 3 so you can understand where im coming from! i spent a night worrying myself sick about it before realising i had to do what was best for me so i rang the next day, explained how i felt and apologised profusely. I also asked her if there was any way either her or her hubby could change their working times to make it work but was told almost categorically no.
Knowing this I later on offered the place to another lady that had been after my services, she came round and is thinking about it due to let me know. Now the first lady has come back to me and said actually she may be able to change her hours after all - but ive now offered the place to this other woman! What do I do, do I have an obligation to the lady that I signed contract with?...I would rather have gone with her but now I may have to let someone else down...potentially if she needs me. My head is so confused, I feel like i have been so unprofessional about this now and its all just making me feel sick with worry.