I find myself without a nanny and I am returning to work next Wednesday. I really could cry - in fact I have. I am just so daunted by the thought of yet more interviews, short lists and trial days all to be fitted into one short week. It really does seem to be a very fickle world - my lovely mothers' help had two sole charge jobs lined up and then cancelled at the last minute and this is the second nanny to change her mind for me. Is it always this hard?