CM CLUB - I feel like GIVING UP! Moan.

[LoveMyGirls]

I really do i have 1 ft mindee who may be leaving by december (ive had him for about 4 months) i havent had any phonecalls for after school care, any phonecalls i have had have been for part time or too many children.

I dont know what to do, unless i get some more children soon i just can't afford to run with this, im working weekends to make end meet (but they're not meeting, they're miles apart!)

I'm fed up. I can't go out to work in the daytime because my dd2 is only 1 and i can't afford childcare because we don't get working famillies tax anymore so between my 2 children i would be paying out more than i could earn as i'm not skilled in anything.

so i'm left with working eves n wkends (if i take up working eves again i won't see my dp ) why does life have to be so difficult sometimes.

when i started this i knew it would take a while to get going but i'm tired and fed up of not even being able to pay the bills never mind enjoy ourselves when we're both working so hard.

Please someone tell me this will get better and it's worth sticking it out. I need some motivational stories please........

sorry for moaning thanks for reading.

I have one mindee 30 hours per week who has been with me since end of November and just confirmed doing cover for someone whose CM is on holiday in halfterm. But, still working crappy horrid weekend job, and desperate for a full timer or couple of part timers so can give that up.

Although I spend all time I am minding with my DS, only see my DD before and after school, and we never really get to go anywhere as a family.

Also, never see DP and money is so tight when we are together argue over that!!!!!!

But no way could afford to work and pay the childcare (and wouldn't really want to cause wouldn't even get time I do get with kids now).

Anyway, moan over, desperate for things to change and really am trying all I can !