To people who didn't see the thread that this refers to I had a long list of complaints about my previous childminder.
Thank you, you nest of vipers :) You snapped me out of something.
Yes I agree I had things all wrong and made a mess of things, but your posts made me see sense. All I could see was that my DD was unhappy and I started picking and picking and built things up completely out of proportion and probably saw things that weren't there.
Things that I saw as absolutely huge and the end of the world, really weren't. I've been having full blown panic attacks for ages over some of the minor things, and there really was no need.
I have had mental health issues in the past, and I think that this has actually been an episode and I need to go back to the doctors and get back on some medication.
I hadn't even really talked things over with my DP which is a sign that I was starting to get a bit unreal and lost in my own head, but I've had a long chat to him tonight and we are going to try to put things right. I've been "remembering" things that haven't happened unrelated to all this as well.
So although it was about something unrelated, it may have saved me from going completely loony again.
So 