Well I really dont know where to start. DC2 is due any day now and suddenly I've realised I've got to give birth Obviously I've known this all along but have just been ignoring it
Last time the birth was hard on me but DD was born healthy and I'm thankful for that and realise I've got to just forget about it, but I just cant seem to get past it. I keep bursting into tears and when I had to make notes on my birth plan I just got hysterical.
My contractions started 5 days before she was born, every 10 mins (ish) but managable 2 days before she was born I went to a midwife apt and she told me to go to the hospital because DD hadnt grown for the last week or so, my BP was high (I also had sugar protein in water and had swollen up like a balloon) and DD's heartrate was a little fast. Hospital admitted me and induced me the next day (One day earlier than I was supposed to be) Everything went well got to 5 cms with no pain relief and was moved to a private room. Then it all seemed to go downhill. The midwife was never in the room she went and sat and chatted in the nurses station, me and DP had no idea what was going on at any point. Had an epidural that failed as DD was back to back and all of the contractions were in my back, I was forced to stay on the bed as I needed to have continuous monitoring due to being induced and was hooked up to a drip because my contractions "were not doing anything" despite the fact that I had gone from 0-5 cms in about 3 hours on my own. (I really believe that I was only put on the drip because the hospital was very busy - all rooms were full - and they wanted to get me through quicker)
I ended up getting urges to push when I was only 8cms which prolonged the labour as my cervix had apparenty swollen, Pushing for almost 2 hours and not getting anywhere, an episiotomy (cut in 2 places) and just missed out on an assisted delivery. Coupled with the fact of having around 10 people staring at my faff trying to get the baby delivered..... Then the placenta got stuck which really pissed the midwife off as she wanted to go home
Then I was forced to go and have a shower when I could barely walk, couldnt breathe (14 hours of sucking on gas and air) and had lost a fair amount of blood so was quite woozy.
I saw my Midwife on Thursday and asked her how likely it was I would end up with induction again and she was very matter of fact that I probably would.
So sorry about the essay but has anyone who was induced or had a shitty birth gone on to have a great second birth or no induction? Or am I destined to go through it again? I'm not even hoping for a great birth just one that doesnt make me tense up if I have to think about it. TIA.