Feeling really cross with myself for not being more assertive and just wondering what to do now, if anything.
My history is that I've had 1 emergency CS with DS1 for failure to progress - he was big 9lb13 and not in a good position, probably cos he got stuck trying to turn and had big head and shoulders.
DS2 was an reluctant elective CS at 41 weeks when I was showing no signs of going into labour naturally.
Anyway, I'm pretty resigned to a CS this time round but was hoping if I went into labour naturally sometime before 39 weeks to at least have a trial of labour.
I saw the consultant today at 20 weeks and she just said 'no we couldn't let you do that.' They'd want me to go in and have a CS even if things seemed to be be OK. I was a bit shell-shocked and so didn't argue but now I feel a bit pathetic for not being more assertive. She'd also been talking about possible sterilisation so think I was still reeling from that.
I'm not due to see anyone other than routine midwife appointments so don't really know if I should do anything - I'm not likely to go into labour early so is probably a bit of a non-problem and am happy to have CS at 39 weeks. But if there's any chance of a VBA2C I'd want to give it a go.
Do I wait and see and if I go into labour just refuse a CS then? I figure they can't make me have one. Community midwife was v anxious at the thought of VBA2C so doesn't seem much point in discussing it with her.
Thanks to anyone who's managed to stick with my ramblings this long. I'm really cross with myself for being such a wimp!