I have 2 DC & DS is coming up 6 months, his birth (the PG in general) have left me terrified of ever getting PG again let alone giving birth again
I'm really sorry as this is very long....
DDs birth was pretty straight forward, 10 hours from first contraction to placenta being delivered, on G&A & one shot of pethidine (sp) - did have to have to be cut twice which wasn't fab but was a pretty textbook birth. Afterwards wasn't great, stitches burst, got an infection & had PND
But I got through all of that with counselling & AD's & the support of my lovely DH.
When I got PG with DS I thought that 2nd time around the birth would be straight forward & not to long - as did my MW.
The pregnancy was quite hard going as I felt very ill all the way through, low BP, low iron so I felt very dizzy & faint most of the time & generally very wiped out.
I was rushed to hospital at 33 weeks as I was getting contractions. I ended up having to be transferred to Kings Lynn (about 2 hours drive from us) by ambulence as the SCBY unit in our hospital was closed as it was full & KL hospital was the only one free with both a SCBU cot free & a delivery suite free at the same time. Thankfully the staff were beyond excellent & with the aid of a drip, steriods etc etc labour was halted. I did have to go back again a few days later as I was getting contractions again but thankfully they stopped of their own accord!!
In the lfollowing weeks I had to be scanned a few times as they were concerned about DSs weight as I was measuring small - but all was fine.
After weeks of worrying DS would come early I eventually went into labour at 39+5.
About midday my waters broke & were tinged green so went straight to delivery suite where they confirmed I had meconihem (sp!!) in my waters.
I was only 1cm dilated which obviously meant nothing seeings as DS was my 2nd.
As my contractions were far apart & not very strong they hooked me up to a drip to try & speed up labour.
By about 7pm I was only 3cms - at this stage started on the G&A & had a shot of pethidine (sp)
I was constantly hooked up to a monitor so wasn't able to really walk around which was frustrating.
By about 11pm contractions were almost on top of one another & the pain was unbelieveable - I couldn't believe how painful it was, was 10 times worse then my labour with DD. I felt like I would pass out with the pain, by this point I was literally begging for an epidural so the MWs fetched the anaesthetist who agreed I could have one.
So got me all settled & proceeded to put the epidural in - unfortunately for whatever reason it didn't work & the pain was as intense as ever - the anaesthetist was fab & was trying everything he could to get it to work.
By this point I was 5-6cms dilated & just wasn't progressing, I had noticed that DSs heartrate had been dipping from time to time & then all of a sudden the room just flooded with people. The monitor was turned away & I could see the MWs & doctors talking & pointing at the monitor etc. DH was in the corner of the room looking as pale as anything & like he was going to be sick.
I was then asked to shift position a few times but they were still concerned.
I was then told they needed to get a sample of blood from DS to check his oxygen levels - so I was tipped right back on the bed, legs in stirrups (I was begging the MWs to be careful as had severe SPD) - for whatever reason DS wasn't coming down so he was very high up & they were really struggling to get a sample - they tried & tried but just couldn't reach him.
It all starts to get a little bit hazy here as I was in so much pain I don't really remember much except looking at a photo on the wall!!
I couldn't hear the monitor anymore as I think it had been turned down by this point.
Eventually it was decided that DS was in to much distress to continue my labour naturally & that an EMCS was needed.
So we were taking down to the theatre - as the epidural hadn't worked I was given a spinal which worked within seconds.
I was then joined by DH & they talked us through everything & advised us that DS would be taken over to the table to be checked etc & that SCBU were on stand by should they be needed.
DS was born at 00:38 weighing 7lbs 10oz & was absolutely perfect - he came out with a very heart cry & was a lovely colour
I was so relieved that all was well that I think I finally started to think about what had happened & promptly threw up all over the poor MW!!
I have to say I cannot fault the staff - they were all excellent, I felt very well looked after, very well informed & cared for & they were all so lovely & so sweet & I am truly grateful for that.
But now I have been left terrified that I will get PG (both DD & DS were planned btw) & that I will have to go through another CS which actually makes me feel paniced.
DH & I had always said that we only wanted 2 babies but my brother has recently announced that he (well hsi wife) is expecting & I can't help but feel a little sad that I won't have any more.
But at the same time I'm terrified that if I did get PG I wouldn't cope with the thought of the birth. Sometimes I get frightened to have sex as terrified I'll get PG (Not that I would think we would as both DC were planned & before TTC I'd never even had so much as a late period)
I've had a few issues with my scar as it took a while to heal completely & even now it gives me trouble (achy, dragging feeling etc) - whilst I can't fault the staff during my labour the aftercare was appalling & I think that probably doesn't help.
It's hard to explain what I'm waffling on about & I know that really & truly what I went through is nothing as DS is here & he's fine & for that I am so incredibly grateful.
Sorry I'm waffling on now - I'll get my coat!