sorry for crappy typing and what will be slow posts, am on shitty patient line thing, the keyboard is..... lucky i've not chucked it out of the window!
am in hospital, i have some sort of infection, they are waiting for blood cultures to come back to find out exactly what infection, but they are fairly sure it's not the baby, but he is being effected by my high temp, rapid pulse, stress etc.
blood tests since friday have shown the infection is getting worse despite iv ab's so it seems we are in for the long haul. tbh i don't have enough energy to do even the simplest things let alone give birth, and with my recent history of no fetal movements, low waters, then kidney infection, then a viral thing and now this, which is going to take a good long while to recover fully from, and thats if i don't pick anything else up in the mean time, i really don't think i'd get through labour without it leading to emcs anyway, surely a planned one has to be better? even if even the thought of a cs scares me half to death.
i know there could be issues re a cs with this infection, but i can't help thinking that with everything that has gone on this last 6 weeks, that my body has basically had enough, and that the baby will soon be at the point where he's better out than in.
is the cons just going to laugh at me if i ask him about this?