Hey there everyone!
I am not pregnant yet!
But me and my partner are planning on trying for a baby very soon!
I have a genuine fear of giving birth in a what people call natrually way,
this is not something i am bragging about, in fact i am actually a bit ashamed of what people may think,
my mother had 2 C.sections,after awful experiances... my friends birth of her daughter [that i was present for] ended up with her screaming the place down and with 3rd degree tears, my cousin had horrific experiance with her sons birth, and i dont think i have had one person tell me face to face that im doing the wrong thing by trying my best to get as much info on having a C.Section as possible,
yes i know people can have amazing lovely births, i know!
its just not something i feel incapable of,
i have nightmares about it, panic attacks, and feel physically sick thinking about doing it the natural way!
im sorry, but its just how i am.
of corse, if i get offfred couciling, i will take it! But i have had counciling many many times before, for a number of things, ... so i know alllll about that.
With all the bad experiances and with my own mother telling me i should have a c section, after she had PostND twice with me and my brother, after she had days and days of labour... and had to have c sections anyway... my minds pretty made up,
i have support, i dont need people telling me how its wrong, or if they think its stupid, i need advise to make me feel better, i want to plan ahead, i am desparate for a little one!
He/She would be adored dearly trust me!
I dont want Pnd or go through something that would trumatise me for the rest of my life, i have enough panic attacks as it is, something i have always suffered with unfortunatly
If anyone knows how i feel that would be great,
and any one who knows any private centres and how much it was? ...
Anything, i just really reallllyyy need some help!;
i want to plan my baby!
xxx