I suffer from severe tokophobia as well as a long history of anxiety and depression.
I attempted to give birth naturally with my first but had a near mental breakdown in the middle of it. It took about 36 hours and ended in emergency caesarean. The whole thing was awful and hazy. I had very bad post natal depression and ocd afterwards which ultimately impacted my first days of motherhood..
If I had tokophobia then I have it far worse now. I would love a second baby but I absolutely don't want to go through it again so would be very happy with ELCS as I found physical recovery very easy.
Does anyone know if I can have it in NI? I just moved here from England so not completely familiar with the dynamics. The idea of having to give birth naturally horrible especially after the first one.