I’m 5 days pp, had my 3rd baby at 37+5 last Sunday. The pregnancy was a very anxiety filled pregnancy due to a loss before him and I just didn’t enjoy it at all. I had several episodes of reduced movement and was under the mental health midwives due to anxiety. They offered me induction and I jumped at the chance as I’d already had 2 successful inductions before. This induction was not anything like my others. It was horrific and my labour was completely different and not how I wanted it, I’m still having flashbacks from it. I’m so glad my gorgeous boy is here though safe and sound.
as perfect as he is, im struggling. I find myself tearful everyday crying over everything things I usually wouldn’t cry over. This is our last baby, so I’m finding myself mourning my pregnancy. I can’t even look back at pictures of me when I was pregnant just a few weeks ago, my birth ball triggers me. My raspberry leaf tea I can’t even look at without crying and I still have my last antenatal appointment hanging up on my fridge that i was supposed to attend.
Everything feels just doom and gloom right now. Whilst my baby is happy and contented most of the time and I can get things done, then I find myself worrying about my other two children and just general life. My husband goes back to work tomorrow so I’m dreading that too.
sorry I don’t know what I’m trying to achieve but just after some advice or support really. When will this pass? He’s a week old Sunday.