Scared. PE ELCS

[Bongbangbing]

It's getting closer to my c section date and I'm getting more scared. I've had one c section previously, but this time around I weigh more, I've got gestational diabetes, and I nearly lost my life to a pulmonary embolism during the first trimester. I'm on blood thinners and I'm really scared of bleeding during the surgery or just generally not making it through. I can't shake the feeling my heart isn't quite right but I have no symptoms to do anything about it. Could very well just be anxiety. I absolutely adore my current child and hate the risk that surgery brings as I want to see them grow up.
Anyone been in a similar situation or have any tips for coping with the anxiety?

@Bongbangbing how are you

@Bongbangbing any updates

@fcukyoubitch
Thanks for asking.
I've got my definite date now, 10 days from now. Not much has changed. I'm still scared but trying not to let it take over my life.

Focus on your breathing and the fact you’re about to meet this new little person. The rest of it isn’t your job or your concern to worry about. I was 100% you worrying about stuff like that when I went in for mine. I downloaded audio tracks by the mindful birth group for a c-section and took that in with earphones in case I panicked and needed something to get me through it. Good luck! They do this so many times every day, it’s nothing to them

@Bongbangbing I feel you I really do I was scared to it's so real isn't it and no one believes what your thinking and you can't enjoy your pregnancy can you hand hold

@fcukyoubitch
Very much so! I'm really trying to get to a place where I'm just focusing on what I can do, rather than what I have no control over but it's easier said than done especially when the day is very quickly sneaking up on me. And that's if she even waits that long! Hoping she at least takes after the rest of my family and doesn't come early. My son was two weeks late and they tried all kinds of ways to make him arrive (the balloon thing, the injection, popping my waters etc) and they still had to drag him out via c section.
How are you? Is this current/recent experience?

Recent experience hun I was a mess threw my pregnancy I was so scared heard of AFE bleeding out all sorts nothing was helping me at all I was crying everyday but when the day came I was calm as anything

Sounds like ptsd have you spoken to your midwife and told her how your feeling?

I spoke to my anaesthetist beforehand and told him how scared I was and gave my full consent should he wish to sedate/medicate me in any way.

I don’t know whether he did or not but I felt very calm.

I know that doesn’t help you before the day. Maybe try getting out in the sunshine/slow walks?