Pph help with recovery

[Laurenmummytoo2]

Hi guys so on 16th Nov I gave birth to my little boy weighing 8lb5.5oz. I was induced at 40+3 by having my waters broke. Once they was broke labour was pretty much straight away few contractions 3 pushes and he was out. Afterwards I hemmerhaged (not sure if spelt right) 800ml of blood because of my uterus not contracting so they massaged it and out me on drip and bleeding stopped I was absolutely petrified and thought I was going to die. I was discharged day after woth no medication or anything. I felt so weak in my body and pale and thought I was dying. I felt sick and couldn't even eat. I was shaking and lightheaded. It was horrid. Doctors prescribed me iron medication. Anyway in my body I have started to feel better but mentally I haven't. Every pain or twinge I feel I think there's something seriously wrong with me and that I'm going to bleed and die. I can't get out of my head what if I start bleeding to death down below. How do I get past this please help I've 3 boys now and just want to feel normal again for them for Christmas. I'm petrified of my period coming and just want to stop this and feel normal again 😔

I lost a lot of blood with my first and ended up having a transfusion of 2 units of blood, which was an instant boost. Only test my blood after 3 days as I kept passing out.....

The risk of further blood loss didn't enter my head though. And after this length of time, I would have thought that you would be fine. I think the best thing would be to see if you can get a chat with either your MW or GP so that they can go over what happened, and give oyu some reassurance.

Bless you - this really resonates with me. I had a pph pf 3.5 litres with my second and ever since I'm so paranoid about any bleeding at all! I just had my third a couple of weeks ago and am constantly checking my bleeding as I'm so scared of hemorrhaging again. If it helps - mine was definitely a one time thing. I've since had periods and another baby and not experienced major blood loss again. But I think it's totally understandable to be worried. It was definitely one of the scariest moments of my life so I totally get how you feel! Take care of yourself and take it easy.

I've spoke to midwifes etc a few times and been reassured my bleeding etc is normal I just can't help but think what if or what if my uterus isn't contracting back or what if I'm guna start bleeding and not stop. I wish this feeling would stop and go away its horrible it's panicky. I've got a doctors appointment later so I will mention this to him. Wow thats alot compared to me then and you went on to have another 😳 that would have freaked me out lol.. was it because of your uterus why your bleeding was more? X

I had my baby a couple of weeks ago and also haemorrhaged following the birth. I had copious amounts of IV fluids and a blood transfusion.
They kept me in overnight for monitoring due to the blood loss and collapsing episodes. I was filling 2 maternity pads at a time overnight and changing them hourly. Midwives werent concerned about the bleeding though.
Im now barely bleeding in recovery. Blood loss is more when im breastfeeding as this stimulates the uterus to contract back to a normal size.
Have a chat with your midwife for reassurance. If there was anything to worry about it would have happened soon after the birth but i know it doesnt stop you worrying.

Have you had a debrief as to why you had a pph? It might help you to understand the root cause of your pph to know that the chance of reoccurrence is negligible?

Hi, sending lots of love. I had a massive pph when my daughter was born 2 years ago and it’s a really scary thing to happen. Please seek help for the mental health aspects of it- birth trauma is really real. Either from your gp, or you can request a birth debrief (mine was massively delayed because of covid but really helped me rationalise it and take the fear away- I wish I’d been able to have it sooner!). There are also counsellors who specialise in birth trauma- Google or also Instagram can help find them, they aren’t hideously expensive but some also have a pay it forward scheme if cost is an issue. For me, the birth debrief was fantastic, and understanding what had happened, and talking through my risk factors for it happening again has really helped Xx