Hi all,
I am feeling a bit shook up and really could do with some reassurance and encouragement!
I am 17 weeks pregnant with my second child. Had a straightforward first pregnancy and birth apart from third degree tears (3a tears, so not bad ones, and I only pushed three times before ds was here, so never had any issues for long afterwards).
However, during this pregnancy I've had constipation and giant poops (sorry for TMI!), so I had been straining, and I was also on my feet a lot - I went on holiday a couple of weeks ago and on the last day I experienced an intense pressure, like dilating but without the pain, something I have never felt before or since, only to discover a walnut-shaped pink thing potruding from my vagina. I've no idea what it was because I went to an out of hours doctor and midwife who confirmed that baby was fine, and told me it was possibly just normal pregnancy swelling, because she couldn't see a prolapse when she checked my insides. She actually told me she thought it was a swollen inner labia.
However, I was still swollen down there (but without pain or pressure) after this (only noticable when wiping after having a wee), and so I rang my local midwives, who told me that this was not normal (!) - so I went to the doctors who told me that she couldnt see much, but could feel two protrusions and so she seems to think I have a rectocele and cystocele. She told me that she wouldn't like me to have a pessary with being pregnant, so she recommends stool softeners and pelvic floors. I tried to tell her that at times I have seen two 'lumps' inside my vagina, but they disappeared and at other times I've seen a donut-shaped protrusion inside my vagina that looks more like my cervix. Has she got my 'diagnosis' wrong because at the time everything had gone back up, so she couldn't see/feel much?
I have been doing my pelvic floors religiously since this and until my doctor prescribes me long-term stool softeners, I've been taking lactulose. I also have an appointment with a specialist in a few weeks - but until then my mental health is shaken because I'm struggling to understand exactly what kind of prolapse I have, and what its implications are. On the odd occasion after being on my feet for a while and then using the toilet, I could see the cervix-like shape again, but mostly I cannot see this at all, and the only prolapse 'signs' I have most of the time are that when I go to wipe myself after using the toilet, I can 9 times out of 10 feel a swelling at the back end of my vagina. But how can it be a rectocele when this swelling seems unaffected by me needing a poop and only the actual action of sitting on the toilet, where everything is encouraged to 'hang out' makes it swell more? - I have no other complications or symptoms from this at all, and am trying to keep off my feet as much as possible and keep on top of pelvic floors to strengthen down there.
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So, that's my first question - what on earth do I actually have?
My other questions are as follows:
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I spoke to a seasoned midwife about uterine prolapses during pregnancy, and she told me that prolapses during pregnancy often go away and have no complications when the body has healed after pregnancy and hormones go back to normal. She said many midwives are cautious because they haven't seen this before, but she has encountered it many times and knows it will most likely heal on its own. I'm confident that this can be the case with uterine prolapses, but would this be the same for rectoceles as well, or is that something different?
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Can rectoceles get better with pelvic floors alone, even when I'm on the toilet and do a pelvic floor, my urine flow stops but the 'bulge' remains unmoved? (I do feel it moving upwards when I clench and am not on the toilet but am lying down though!)
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Will I need to be on stool softeners forever? Really, how bad is it going to be if I get a cough or strain, will the rectocele get and remain worse forever, or, even if it gets worse, will it get better again with pelvic floor exercises?
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Will I eventually need surgery ie. when I hit menopause, or if I keep on top of pelvic floor exercises, is it likely to just get better and not worse? I am terrified of the thought of any surgical intervention, especially as I have no significant problems with this bulge
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After having third degree tears and now a suspected rectocele, can I still have a natural birth? Will that make it worse in the long run?
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Has anyone else had a rectocele during pregnancy or just after birth that got better and now causes no issues?
Sorry for all of the questions. I read so much conflicting and oft negative stuff online that I'm SO anxious, and just want to be able to enjoy my pregnancy!!!