Sorry this is long but there’s a backstory to explain. I had my son 3 years ago - induced via pessary, first and second stage went really well, used tens machine and bath water for pain relief.
But I lost quite a lot of blood from bleeding tears and needed to be examined by 4 people (including a consultant) to determine if I had a 3rd or 2nd degree tear on my perineum. They decided it was a bad 2nd, along with clitoral and urethral tears, and to stitch me up there and then to stem the bleeding. However they made me use gas and air continually (about 60-80 min total) whilst being examined and stitched and, having not used any in labour, I felt very out of control on it and like time was going in circles and I couldn’t escape. I felt very traumatised by it, cried for days after, it contributed to PND and only resolved after counselling sessions about 9 months post partum.
I’m now pregnant again and whilst having contractions doesn’t phase me, pushing the baby out, and having to be repaired after does. I refuse to use gas and air again. I’ve got a consultant appointment coming up, due to the extent of previous tears but midwife suggested:
A) I could have an epidural so don’t feel the repair afterwards. But there’s no guarantees someone will be available to administer one and it might be a v quick labour going on my first one. Plus I know epidurals increase the risk of tearing and I don’t want worse tears either
B) I could go to theatre after to be repaired. But again, if they’re busy and it’s not a bad tear, I fear I might be fobbed off.
Of course other thing I could do is request a C section, which is a possibility, but I haven’t totally ruled out a vaginal birth again yet.
So: Has anyone had a vaginal birth, torn and been stitched up but not used gas and air at all for it? Can’t seem to find any other experiences like this, so would love to hear it’s possible! Thanks in advance.