I am having an elective csection due to previous traumatic labour, which has resulted in PTSD and I am in therapy for.
I was not supposed to fall pregnant (contraceptive failure) so I am not mentally in the best place, but I am keeping the baby.
This will be my fourth child but first csection
Consultants have agreed that I can have a csection, but I have developed such a fear of childbirth that I really don't want to be awake / aware of anything.
Has anyone requested a GA for elective ? I know they can for emergency situations but mentally I can't see how they will get my in there and stable if I'm awake,
Bearing in mind I have had anxiety attacks every time I have had to go to the hospital, I can't speak to the midwives without breaking down.
I am under the mental health team but I just can't get past what happened, they've moved me to a different midwifery team to who delivered my last baby, and everyone is being supportive but mentally I just don't think I can lay there and put my trust in them again, as selfish as it sounds i want to go to sleep and wake up when it's all over and done with