I’m currently 42w + 2 days pregnant and sat in the garden of the maternity unit as I write this post after having an almighty sob at my midwife.
For context I came in on Monday and my cervix wasn’t dilated and still posterior. Since being in the hospital I have had the pessary and gel which has opened my cervix to 3cm and I was told from 8am this morning it would now be a case of having my waters broken on the consultant led unit. This hasn’t happened due to lack of beds.
Seeing as I had originally wanted a home birth (my first birth was super clinical) being stuck on the ward with plenty interventions and examinations is starting to wear thin. I’m missing my little one at home and it’s breaking me the thought of being in here for another few days.
I’ve just had another examination which was the most painful by far and my cervix is still quite far back, I just feel so completely disheartened by everything. I’m starting to dread labour speeding up, on my own in the ward (seems like most induction activity takes place at night) I just want to walk out and be at home with my little one and let my labour unfold naturally! My baby is healthy and all observations have been completely normal, this is DC2.
I just wondered if anyone has any words of encouragement and/or any tips on how I can get out of this headspace? I think I’m now getting more and more scared of potentially being up all night alone in pain, but also incredibly uncomfortable being in a ward and having all choice taken away (at least that’s what it feels like…!)