Hi, just looking for some advice or experience.
I have a severe phobia of vomiting which I have had for 18 years. This spurred a number of different mental health issues, major depressive disorder, generalised anxiety disorder, ocd, eating issues etc.
I managed to have a baby in 2017, despite all my issues and I love my daughter more than anything. But my labour was traumatic. Induced first time round for reduced movements, 3 days in hospital, epidural and drip, she came out but I had a bad second degree tear, lost a lot of blood and spent over 6 months recovering from it emotionally. I honestly feel like my body wouldn't go into labour naturally because of my anxiety I have on a day to day basis.
So I wanted to find out if anyone else has similar anxiety or depression and has naturally gone into labour either first or second time? I am due in a week and a bit and I am terrified. No real signs of labour, and I have a belief that I will have a crappy birth because of my anxiety inhibiting labour.
Starting to wish I went for an elective c-section, but I didn't feel like my issues were justified enough, and the thought of a c-section scares me.
Thanks to anyone who reads and comments