like you empen I had an em c-section with my first and after 48 hours in labour I was so drug crazed and desperate to get the baby out thsat it was all a bit of a blur and I didn't really know what was happening.
I had an elective this time around and it was fine. I walked into the aneasthetic room and was calm and chatting away to the doctors and nurses as they put in the spinal and epidural. I found it a bit uncomfortable but I think I was tensing up too much as they had a bit of bother when I had my em c-section and my body was remembering the pain. this time because I was more aware of what was going on, I was irrationally scared that I would feel pain, but of course I didn't. The screen between me and the surgeaon wasn't very high, and I could see what was going on in the shiny bit of the theatre lights which made me a bit light headed.
The anaesthetist was lovely though and kept talking to me to keep my mind on other things as did DH. From incision to baby being delivered was about 10 minutes as there was a bit of scar tissue from the old operation, and then there was a very tense few moments as DD was whisked off to be resuscitated (I don't think I breathed the whole time) Once she was breathing DH went over to see her being cleaned up a bit and weighed and then he held her for a bit and then passed her to me. I chatteed to the surgeon at this point as he stitched me up, about additional maths tutoring for his DS of all things. DH took DD back while they moved me to a bed and then I was wheeled into recovery where I had as much skin to skin as I needed and gave DD her first feed (and had soe toast). We were on the recovery ward for about two hours before going to post natal.
I was in a bit of pain afterwards as I reacted to one of the painkillers so they stopped it, but didn't give me an alternative and I think that hampered my recovery a bit. The catheter was fine, just awkward with pads etc and i felt it come out (about 12 hours later) but it wasn't uncomfortable. I had a bit of bladder weakness about 12 hours after that (like floods of wee on the floor, but I was just glad it was wee and not due to PPH)
I stayed in longer this time around and was in a side room so it was much more pleasant all round.
It was a really nice experience to be honest, especially after the kerfuffle of last time.
Sorry this has been such an essay.
You'll be fine xx