(please dont read if youre a worrier!)
My latest panick attack about impending labour (due in 6 weeks time) is that Im going to die. This is baby no.2 and I didnt have any fears about myself at all giving birth to DS1 (even though was a v difficult labour)
This time, my biggest fear is that something might happen to me, and I keep on panicking for my little toddler. I almost want to opt for a caesarean.
Ive read some stories, one about the woman at gt portland who bled to death after giving birth and another in a local paper.
What Im asking is, how will I know if Im haemorraging? (I can remember being left alone with ds1 soon after delivery and no one came to check on me) How can I find stats on this for the hospital Im at? (the doctors are being vague) Ive looked at birthchoice, but couldnt find any info.
Am I just being mad?
thankyou