Hi ladies,
I am absolutely terrified, as in properly, properly terrified. I am booked to be induced today at 4pm ( I have to ring soon to confirm there's space) and I am beside myself with fear.
I am 38 weeks today and being induced due to having polyhydramnios. This is my 3rd baby and first induction.
I have read so much in the last week since being told I will be induced and I have so many people I know who have been induced, that I felt like I had a good picture of what to expect. But this morning, I've found myself with this crippling fear.
I'm scared of it not working and having days of pain ending in a C-section. I'm scared of my partner not getting to the hospital on time and being alone. I'm scared of polyhydramnios complications and still having a cord prolapse or haemorrhage even though the labour is controlled in hospital. Even though they can't find an explanation for the the polyhydramnios on the scan, I'm scared the baby will be born with something terribly wrong and I'm scared something will go wrong in labour and I'll die and leave my children without their mum.
I'm so sorry, but I need to sound these fears off to people who don't know me as they've been consuming me.