PND

[Daisysandviolets]

I'm feeling so overwhelmed, baby girl is 9 days old. I know it could still be baby blues but I feel it's more than that! And just feel so alone, wanted to see if anyone else had experienced this?

I was in hospital a week before and a couple of days after due to hypertension.

Since being home I’m feeling really emotional and I know there are baby blues but I’ve been depressed before and it feels similar!

Bizarrely I miss being pregnant, I miss being in hospital and I feel a bit lost now I’m out here on my own, to the point I want to be a midwife so I can be back at the maternity hospital! I’m devastated the midwives are handing me over To the health Visitor Tomorrow! My husband is amazing but he can’t help me mentally.

I’m breastfeeding and I feel exhausted and it feels so hard and I feel like Sometimes I’m not up to the task of being a mum and feel guilty for my daughter.

I also have hurrendous anxiety about everything to do with baby, I’m terrified of SIDS, every tiny mark or blotch I panic is meningitis.

Everyone has said this is just baby blues and will just pass but I’m terrified it won’t.

I also thought I was ok with my birth, I was induced on hormone drip, dialated to 10cm, pushed for three hours but couldn’t get her out! They tried the venthouse but ended in emergency c section. I thought I was ok but today I feel like a failure for not being able to get to the end of pushing!

It all just feels like a lot!

I'm feeling exactly the same! I had an emergency c-section after induction, and had to spend a week on the post natal ward because I and DD caught an infection.

She's almost 4 weeks old now and I'm still so emotional.

I had the baby blues for much longer than expected. But as you've said you feel like this is more than baby blues. It's great that you recognise you don't feel like yourself. Please talk to your HV or even get an appointment with your GP. Those first few weeks are tough. Big hugs

My DS is 10 days old and feel how you feel! The realisation that you are now responsible for a baby is a true 'holy shit!' moment.
My labour was similar to yours but my body stopped at 6cm dilated as baby was back to back and he just wasn't coming.
My DH has been incredible and he goes back to work on Monday and pure fear of being alone with my baby boy is setting in.
I've cried everyday for the last 5 days.
You are doing the right thing in starting to talk about your feelings. Let your DH know how you're feeling and keep talking.
I suffer with anxiety and depression anyway so I know not to bottle things up. Even if you just cry your way through it, will help you.
I think mine is the baby blues at this time but if you feel like it's something more, please speak with yourself HV or GP as pp's have already said. You're not in this alone xxx

You don’t have to be discharged from the midwives, you could ask for them to do another few visits before being discharged.
Do they know how you feel?