Me again lol I’m in a huge panic at min

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This site is helping me vent so thank you.

Following from my recent post I ended up going to hospital and being checked and luckily I wasn’t leaking amniotic fluid. The monitor picked up tightening and I am getting pains baby is engaged and could be start of things that’s all I am told ?

Today I am 39+6 and now totally regretting opting to try for a vbac ( felt pressured by consultant ) months ago and agreed.

2 weeks ago at my growth scan my baby weighed 7lb4 already. He is also Back to back & when he moves it’s very painful. The nurse said I have pelvic griddle pain, and I’m not kidding when it says the pressure feels like a bowling ball up my bum sorry tmi.

My elective is booked in for 9 days past my due date so the 25th August and I’m really starting to panic, my baby is already big I don’t need to go that far past my due date and I’m absolutely terrified of it ending in emergency again like With my first, especially cos he’s back to back.

I also have scar tissue from previous section and scar tissue from endometriosis so I just want to feel in control, and honestly cannot stop crying at min I actually have feelings I may die if it’s an emergency as i lost so much blood last time and the epidural didn’t take full effect I had to be put under half way through so it was traumatic and I suffered PND because of this.

I rang birthing centre yesterday after I got home and broke down explained and they said for me to ring antenatal Monday but basically not hold my breath as these are booked in weeks in advance.

I’m now just at a loss I have a two year old who depends on me and I’m snapping at her bless her and she’s seeing me cry.

My partner will be at home to help if it goes to section, I know there’s no saying a vbac won’t go to plan and that I’ll be home the same day.

But then there’s no saying I’m going to struggle with him being big and back to back and needing an emergency anyway when I’d rather be on control and know I’m having a planned and have things in place ready.

Can anyone plz tell me they cannot refuse my wishes ? I’m going to be going out my mind all weekend as I cannot speak to anyone about this until Monday.

My DD took 5 years to concieve due to endo and I had to have treatment, number 2 baby has been a miracle so I am so grateful, this will be our last baby and I just want to have a nice controlled experience and not go so far Over xx

It's a stressful time to be pregnant, sorry you're feeling panicked now. Whatever happens, you only have a maximum of 10 days to go now, even though they may feel like the longest 10 days of your life!

7lb4 at 37 weeks isn't THAT big, tbh, so I really wouldn't let that panic you. Plus growth scans all have a margin of error in them. He might be back to back right now but they can move at any point including during labour! There's nothing really to indicate that a VBAC isn't a reasonable option.

Regarding "refusing your wishes," if they have no ELCS slots before your booked date, then clearly they can't book you in for one. They are respecting your wishes by arranging an ELCS at a suitable time, you don't get a free choice of dates. Of course, if you go into labour before then and decide you really don't want a VBAC, you can ask for an EMCS at the time, but be aware that it would be a low priority so you might be in for a wait. There's no harm in calling on Monday to ask if there are any earlier slots for your CS, but there might just not be any!

It sounds like your last CS was a scary experience, but the chance of similar problems is low, and the chance of actually dying, as you fear, is virtually zero, please don't let that panic you.

Good luck whatever happens!

Hey did you manage to speak to someone today? Did they put you at ease at all c

Hi wanabe

Yes I did

I spoke to midwife and she is honestly my angel in all this.. I broke down on the phone n told her exactly how I felt that If it went to emergency then I was so scared I’d die.. that’s how bad the first emcs affected me.

She has promised me they can not make me vbac she also agrees that if I have these fears then a planned would be so much better. She’s even got another midwife to cover her at a gp’s so she will be in theatre with me. And she is coming to my pre op Friday to make sure everyone knows that it’s my choice and how upset I’ve been about it all.

If I do by any chance come into labour before Tuesday then she said I will still be given an elective, but it cannot be brought forward if that makes sense.

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