I had a traumatic birth with my first child in 2014. Had a forceps delivery in theatre with a 3b degree tear and multiple internal lacerations and lost over 60% of the blood in my body. My daughter was born blue/floppy and needed resuscitation after her cord snapped before she was fully delivered. It took me a long time to take the step and try for a second child. At my 12 week booking in appointment the midwife referred me to the high risk clinic for a consultant led delivery. However I'm now over 39 weeks and still have not seen one. I inquired about it at every midwife appointment I had then a couple of weeks ago i had a telephone consultation with a midwife from from birthing options, she said she didn't have any of my proper notes with her. When I asked about the bleeding she said i probably bled because my uterous didn't contract and she didn't have anything on her notes about the cervical tears or my daughter's cord snapping and said that it couldn't have snapped before she was born and must have happened after she was clamped and after she was delivered. she went on to say that i can even give birth at the birthing center if I wanted and would be perfectly safe.
After the appointment I went back and read through the notes that I took pictures of at the time and it said the uterous contracted well and bleeding was from the laceration also said that the cord snapped before delivery. She couldn't properly answer any of my questions or address my concerns. I called my midwife after this and told her how I felt and told her I assumed I would be speaking to a consultant, she said my referral at the beginning was not done properly and as it's last minute she put me through to birthing options instead. She said she would try and arrange another appointment with this midwife and asked me to take my notes with me when I do. It has been 2 weeks since and today I got a call from my midwife saying that the birthing options midwife said it's up to me now to decide what I want to do, an elective c section or a vaginal birth at hospital or birthing clinic and that I won't be seeing a consultant or have another appointment with herself. I'm really confused and terrified. I assumed I would at least be able to discuss with a consultant to get some reassurance about what happened last time. Or at least find out about the risks so I could make an informed decision. My last antinatal appointment I had last week was not with my usual midwife as she was on leave. The midwife I saw said that I should have seen a doctor by now because of what happened last time and would send an email to try and get me seen but then I get today's call saying I won't be seeing anyone now. I'm really confused. I want to know if this is normal. I know everyone's situations are different but those of you who had 3rd degree tears did you see a doctor to discuss or is what I am experiencing normal.