My sons 3 weeks old tomorrow, he's my first. The labour was 24 hours long from contractions to delivery and was traumatic. I pushed for 2 hours and baby's head was stuck, I had to have forceps and a episiotomy which also gave me a second degree tear inside and out. I heamoraged and lost 3 litres of blood, needed a transfusion and a iron drip. The next day 2 weeks I became weaker and weaker and couldn't even stand in the shower for 2 minutes let alone walk anywhere with him. I had an infection which needed antibiotics to clear.. only just now have I felt a bit back to myself but I'm worried in the future to go through something like this again. I know not all labours are the same but it's scared me a lot to continue my family. Has anyone any advice or been through something similar? The midwife says there's a programme I can go to which I can discuss my birthing experience with my doctors who helped deliver my baby but I'm scared to think and talk about it. I have nightmares where I wake up in sweats and crying from the experience.
Picture of my son, he was hard to get into this life but I love him to pieces x