Had my appointment to go through my notes this morning from my labour 8 months ago. I had really worked up to it, have waited months for this appointment, hardly slept last night, organised child care etc and when I turned up the lady called me in and said they haven't delivered my notes so could we reschedule.
However just as she called me into the room another midwife came in too and sat down. I immediately recognised her as being one of the midwives who examined me during early labour and sent me home. It triggered so many feelings and memories seeing her and I wasn't given any reason to why she was there.
I'm assuming she just came in because she was wanted to speak to the lady after I left, but I felt so so vulnerable and just th way o felt during my labour which has been such a trauma to me. I've just cried constantly since and feel so open as though this woman knew all this intimate private stuff about me. Just needed to vent