My first birth was not easy - induction, back to back baby with huge head, failed epidural, completely losing the plot on syntocin, EMCS. We're both fine and I had a debrief with a midwife some time later.
One thing I remember (which I didn't discuss at the debrief) was sitting bouncing on a ball next to a cabinet, and hitting the top of the cabinet as hard as possible during contractions. Not sure if I was looking for pain to distract me from the contractions or could it have been some sort of endorphins from self inflicted pain? Has anyone else had anything like this during labour? I'd really like to understand it better! Thanks