C section so anxious

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Hi all

I am not sure what I am looking for maybe just to get my fears out and see if anyone else has experienced similar.

So this is my 7 th pregnancy due in 7 weeks 4 natural births 1 elective section and 1 emcs due to placental abruption during my last delivery.

I have never really been worried about pregnancy and delivery until now I think it probably has a lot to with the my last delivery and how we both nearly died. Anyway I thought I was ok until I had an awful dream I died during the c section now that's all I can think about and what can I do my little boys left with out their mum and my husband too how would they cope one of children has autism and doesn't understand how would he cope. I hope I am being completely irrational and this will pass but I can't help feeling something is going to happen 🙄

I’m sorry to hear this.

I suffer awfully with prenatal depression and anxiety and have been referred for CBT and to perinatal mental health services in the past, which I think might be worth you considering. Have you also had a debrief from your last labour as sometimes that can be really helpful as it allows you to talk through everything with someone who is knowledgable and has all of your individual notes in front of them.

Might not be your thing, but have you considered birthing classes? They can be for C sections too. I've worked with a few C section mums who had anxiety and it helped to calm them in the run up and during the delivery

Ahh thank you for the reply, I suffer to from severe anxiety and this is just making everything seem worse it's like I can't switch off with worry 🙄. I forgot to mention during my 4 th delivery I had a very traumatic vaginal delivery where again baby nearly died and I developed an infection in my womb after delivery and was in hospital for 2 eels after Again didn't realise this was an issue until I was pregnant with my 5 th baby where I was diagnosed with PTSD due to the trauma of the birth I had counselling during my 5th pregnancy which really did help and even allowed me to get back on the maternity ward with out having a panic attack. However just being in the hospital for appointments and scans etc has my sense heighten and feel like I can't breathe. I did have a debrief of my last delivery although a lot of what they said didn't actually add up to what happened so I m now also thinking maybe it's a conspiracy I am meant to die 🙄 ( anxiety at its best) it just feels like I don't have a good scenario everything is worse case scenario. sorry for the long message and also if I sound irrational hormones and tiredness mixed with a little anxiety will be the culprit for that 😬

Fantastic idea to be honest I think I would give anything a go, I am considering hypo birthing classes which I feel will be of huge benefit as I do believe in that does work.

I am due to have my 7th baby and 3rd c section in approx 3-4 weeks and I am terrified. Just as I think I am ok anxiety kicks in and I feel I can't breathe, it's awful and I feel so stupid about it, I honestly feel like I am counting down the days until die 😞 not the days until I meet my little boy. I just don't know how to shake it. I have had 4 vaginal deliveries 1-4 and my last two were c sections 5 was breech and 6 was complications during VBAC which nearly resulted in us both dying. I am have a planned c section this time I honestly don't know how to remain calm has anyone else been like this ?