Sorry this is a long one.
I am just looking for Positive experiences after a traumatic birth, I’ve had my boy last July and had a traumatic experience, Everything went wrong during my labour, i laboured pretty much most of it at home and when I got to hospital it was all very quick. He was born with the sac water intact still around his head and pieces of my placenta came out at the same time as him, this resulted in a hemmorage, I had doctors rushing in as I was bleeding out and had retained placenta left, I struggled to bond with my baby and at the post natal ward I felt like I couldn’t breath and had palpitations I was convinced I was going to die, I buzzed for a midwife several times and they would just brush it off as being tired, I was put on injections for 10days due to the bleeding and from then developed into postAnatal depression, it took me a very long time to bond with my baby, I didn’t enjoy anything about the birth and to be honest I don’t remember any special moments of him being born. This should be a exciting and happy time yet I am here crying my eyes out. I got Pregnant again despite being on birth control. I still haven’t gotten over my last birth and it’s all very soon again. I pretty much pretended for majority of my pregnancy that this wasn’t happening but now it’s all so real since they’ve given me a induction date in 2 weeks due to medical reasons the consultant scared me to death with explaining how it all would work and that it would be much more painful than a natural birth being put on the drip to start contractions which would be more intense and more regular, I have to be put on several drops and iv fluids and monitored continuously. I am terrified to a point I start crying when I even think about the day coming closer, I am terrified that those depressing low feelings will come back that I won’t enjoy the birth like it went last time. I am terrified that I will get anxiety and depression again. It started from the very first night at the postanatal ward where I started getting intense strange feelings and wasn’t able to breath and felt like my heart was going to stop due to the racing feelings. I have 2 weeks left and I don’t know how to get through the weeks without being so anxious and scared I am unable to sleep as I constantly think that it will all happen again.
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Induction after a traumatic birth less than a year ago!
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whatsfortea01 · 30/05/2018 22:00
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